For me writing about myself is not an easy thing to do. I always think to myself why do people care what happens in my life or about my transition. A friend though of mine thought that it might be therapeutic to write what was on my mind, and also about my transition progress. Back in 2009: I been on HRT for a bit over 4 years, which I also consider is the time that I first started to transition. Most of my close friends, and direct family know about my need to transition and for the most part I have been very lucky and blessed with the support that I am receiving. When I first game out to my Mom and Dad I was incredibly nervous, I sat them down at their table and just started to cry uncontrollably. Every-time I tried to talk again I just broke down and started to cry again. They of course asked what was wrong and whatever it was that they would love me. I finally told them that I have not been happy for a long time and severely depressed. I have also told them that I was going to a therapist to initially hopefully narrow down the root cause of my depression. After many therapy sessions I was diagnosed with Gender identity disorder (GID). I explained to my parents what this was to the best of my abilities, and first they did not really know what to say and they said that they never known that I was that depressed that I needed to see a therapist. When I get depressed I am not very verbal at all about how I feel, and most of the time I distance myself from friends/family until the depression gets to a level that I can handle. My parents are not overly religious but they did try to through the whole religion thing about my transition in how God does not make mistakes. I had to respond to that with saying that if I were born blind or physically deformed in anyway wouldn't you do anything and everything that you can so I would have a 'normal' and happy life? If God does not make mistakes then would you just leave me to be blind or be physically deformed? They really did not know how to answer this. After about 2 hours with sitting down my parents and discussing this in detail they just said that they really do not understand what I am going though but no matter what they will love and support me. I feel very blessed/lucky to have such amazing and supportive parents, even my close friends are 100% supportive of me. 2014 - The Present: I am still not full-time yet but hopefully within the next 60 days I will FINALLY transition to full-time status. I informed HR about my GID and so far they have been so amazing and supportive. HR informed me that I am not the only one in the organization that has transition, in my own division yes as far as they know I am but nationally there have been others. I asked HR if I can reach out to the others to discuss their experiences, and for any advice so I am still waiting to hear back from HR about this request. I am still stressing though a lot about transitioning. I still have the fear is not being able to pass successfully either at work or out in public. My friends who know about me says that I am stressing over nothing and said that I am pretty passable right now, and just need to work on my hair and makeup. Which honestly makeup is defiantly my major weakness. When I ever try to do my own makeup I end up looking like a drag-queen who is on bath salt or something like that. I then get discouraged and do not try to do makeup again for awhile, which I know is not helping me in this area and I probably need to go someplace professionally to get it done so I can watch exactly they they do and try my best to copy it. Anyway I need to get back to work, I will try to update more when I can :-)